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Subject:Guilty of a post for a LJ group joining
Time:12:37 am
Current Mood:sleepysleepy
Not dead. I just graduated from grad school  with that whole MFA thing. Now I'm finally out, but studying for my EC - 6 teaching certification so I can teach internationally. A true wanderer I will be, starting with Asia (South Korea) if I should have any luck. While China is viable, the general language just really really grates on my ears. Japan is too expensive. Plus I follow more things about S. Korea thanks to first watching their TV dramas ages ago and then discovering one could teach abroad (originally looking at ESL, now slightly changed gears). Looking at other places, but after living in the Bay area I've decided I want to go wherever I won't need a car. Return to public transportation after a year of driving I already know will be very, very welcomed.

Yes, I put the PHD thing on hold as I'm burned out and all I want to do is teach and write (while travelling). Oh yeah. And start serious dating-for-a-relationship finally once I get settled for hopefully two+ years somewhere. Not to mention pay off over 90,000 dollars in loans. Plus GRE kicked my ass.

Anyways, now I should head off to bed as I plan to at least friggin walk those 4 - 5 miles if I'm not running them. I can't wait to have my friggin' schedule somewhat in order when classes start.

Oh yeah, and I'm almost done writing my book. On hold currently with studying for my degree. After tomorrow's reading section it'll just be two math problems a day while I read through Social Studies, Science, Arts/Phys Ed/Music, and then remind myself about Language Arts. I need to pass this the first time around and before July when the twice a week classes start up. Then I'll have a year for the final one. Otherwise it'll just be hunting down a job.

On the bright side I'm going to try and start weasling my way into international schools by asking one if I can get my 15 observation hours observing a class of their's.

TL;DR Life update to meet OMONA posting because I've gotten into lurking instead of posting.

Edit again: Haha, looks like I had met the requirements after, but whatever. I LIIIIIVVVVEEEEE. Yeah, time for bed.
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Subject:I have a what still?
Time:01:41 am
Current Mood:awakeawake
An update on life currently. Graduated with my BA in Creative Writing, Minors in English and Visual Arts from SVC. If I stayed one more year it would've been a double BA, but I didn't want to stay a fifth year for that English degree upgrade. Now I'm attending this lovely California College of the Arts (CCA) for my MFA in Creative Writing, while taking the occasional undergrad art course (why not?). One semester down and three more to go. Family moved down to Houston, Texas so I need to figure out creative moments of when to go up and see the Norman buddies while bored out of my skull and sharing a one bedroom apartment with the fam.

Now, I'm researching for a future PHD that will allow me to study comics (the graphic novel as many point out for it to be referred as). I'm open to MAs also since, while I'd love to take the literary slant, SO MANY have a foreign language requirement I just don't have. At least that French I took way back in high school was in the right direction. I need to magically find a Rosetta stone and crack down on my reading and writing. So far (with one exception) I'm looking in the areas of Women/Gender studies, Cultural studies, Visual studies, Media, Pop Culture, and North American studies. I'm slowly attempting to narrow down the fields by researching possabilities in each field and seeing just what would fit and what wouldn't. And this is just looking in the US so far. I'm considering Canada as a potential option and any international program that would otherwise scream "RESEARCH HERE!" Though mainly Canada it looks like. My brief gander at international sites had me boggled and thinking "not for me" so far.

I also have a list of names to research through and screw up my courage to email after reading said research to seek more guiding hands on this adventure. A huge thank you goes out to the So You Want To Apply To Grad School comm here. I'd still be completely lost thinking it was smoke and mirrors without their help. Otherwise, while doing this I'm considering taking a year off (and considering the research for finding a field it's tempting) by going to S. Korea and teaching as an ESL teacher for a year, year and a half since that's something I want to do anyways. Plus, I could always find myself needing the breather after getting my MFA in 2011. Either way I plan to take the GRE within the time frame that would be for applications or before heading out of the country for the job.

Otherwise I'm just a single woman with the wanderlust to hop all over the world still. Besides being highly annoyed currently at my jeans starting to fit instead of loose (but haven't had to buy new jeans so the end isn't there). However, I'm currently in the process of seeking a gym membership to where I'm staying for next semester to counteract that. Then it's gym down in Texas again unless I find myself with an apartment for the summer that would also be for the school year. We'll cross that bridge when it gets closer to worrying about that though. Plus, I'm looking into trying to teach for the summer like a buddy of mine did in Korea so I can get a feel of it (not to mention get paid since moving down to Texas effectively cut away all my cushy-paying jobs. Oh deity does the bank account feel that one!) before I do a year long contract.

And that's just life in a VERY general sense right now before 2010 hits in a few days. Shoot. Maybe I'll start updating this durn thing again as a New Years Resolution. I might actually keep that one.
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Subject:Writer's Block: In a Jam
Time:12:28 am
If you were in trouble or ran afoul of the law, which fictional detective or investigator—from tv, movies, or books—would you want to help you?
While Nero Wolfe is indeed fabulous, I must admit the "I'd be the dame to his P.I." from fiction goes to Garrett, from the Garrett Files by Glen Cook. *sighs* He  and "The Dead Man" are the fantasy noir version of Nero Wolfe in a way. I'd find myself with a knight in rusty armor as he puts it, but does Garrett ever get the job done while caring about the ladies.
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Subject:Eeeeee! Online shopping
Time:11:16 am
Current Mood:sleepysleepy

Whew! Chris is a lovely fun and bad influence. I bought a corset I wanted on sale with shipping at 70.99 from Fredericks. Now just try not to buy anything else for awhile to counterbalance it. Ahhhhh! I'm excited for it to get here and can't wait to try it on. I rarely order anything online so yay for Chris. Someday I should get use to this 'net shopping thing. I ordered this one from Fredericks: http://www.fredericks.com/product/whats+hot/clearance+and+sale/corset+sale/hollywood+dream+corset.do in peacock. I though the color looked really spiffy. Teehee, first a bathrobe on sale from there and now a corset. I'm lovin' Fredericks.

Otherwise classes start up on Monday for me o.o

We don't have art supplies yet for my Landscape Painting class to boot. Here's what my schedule is looking like.

Mondays:
Painting Landscape 3:25 - 4:45

Tuesdays:
Intro to Literature 1:00 - 2:20
Intro to the Arts 3:45 - 5:05

Wednesdays:
Painting Landscape 3:25 - 4:45
Environmental Literature 5:30 - 8:20

Thrusdays:
Intro to Literature 1:00 - 2:20
Intro to the Arts 3:45 - 5:05

Fridays:
Adv. Fiction Workshop II 1:30 - 4:30

I meanwhile have Cross Country then in the evening for practice (no more 6am! Yay!) though I probably will have to run on my own for Wednesdays considering I late I get out. Still not bad. I'm doing okay so far running to the Monument takes about half an hour (about 2 miles). I really need to get faster on those hills. That's my greatest problem is getting up those. I talked to Ken about the proper way to run uphill given I kept feeling intense pressure on my knees. Otherwise I just need to wait 'till I'm in shape enough to be able to have my shoulders stop being on fire. Our first meet looks to be the 1st of September at SUNY - Cobleskill so we'll see how it goes. We're pretty small still, but we need only two more girls for a full team, which isn't bad at all! Heh, Kyle is the only one who showed up for Preseason for the guys. I think Keith is still going to do it though and I'm going to bug Nick if I see him about it. Chris has been thinking about running too. I think some just weren't able to show for Preseason since the new Coach did send out the notice pretty late. Still, he's doing alrighty so far. We also don't have a homegame this time around and he's giving us the 6th of October off too! Liz wants to have a girls weekend in Burlington (though the guys will probably come too) then. She apparently found lots of things she wants to dress me up in there. I think it'd be really fun to do. That'll just leave all of us to get together at some point at Chris's place for a weekend, which would probably be sometime early November 'less I have a game cancelled. I really really hope we do considering Chris is graduating with an Associates in Business this December! It'll be weird not having him here for my year and half left to go of college.

I started looking around a lil bit at Grad schools. I have a few websites for places on the West Coast and one or two for the South. I'm going to order a book about Grad School picking for an MFA in Creative Writing once I find out what the new credit card number is. I figure that'll be really handy. Heh, people keep telling me I still have this year to go, but I'm just really nervous about all of this! I really really would love to go to Grad School and sometimes have been freaking out when I look at the websites wondering if I have what it takes to get accepted at some of these places. If anyone else has some suggestions to the West or South of good grad schools for Creative Writing MFA let me know!

I'm also right now debating on whether or not I really will do workstudy this semester. I was pretty much saying, "Oh I'm gunna do workstudy if I can, I'm gunna do workstudy if I can!" Now I've started looking at my schedule and wondering already if I have too much on my plate because two classes are long term things I'll be working on that are really really hard to do last minute. That and from what I heard lots of positions are already filled up considering federal gets first dibs after all. Still, I mean, after saying all that time I'm going to if I can (which would just be college if so) now I'm starting to think if its such a good idea this semester. I dunno, I figured I'd see how the first week or so goes and then think again on seeing about workstudy.

Also I need my eating schedule to get somewhat better. I've been snacking away in my room, which is really driving me batty. Heh, I was bitching about it to Tiff and she joked, "Maybe you're pregant." So I replied back, "Nope, closest way would be you're somehow ESPing me part of your cravings for food." I think its because I've been so on and off about eating regularly. That should be fixed up soon as classes start thankfully.

I'm still looking for a place off campus. Still within the Bennington area given Hoosik Falls, while I heard has great prices is at least 20mins away and that would be hell in the spring time driving. I'm actually going to check out this place called Nathaniel's Court again today when I go to get milk. I saw a for rent sign there on a townhouse, but the number was wrong apparently. Otherwise my number is floating out around there a bit and I might have potential roomies so long as everything sticks. Sam would need to be next year is the thing though since Spring she would still be a Sophmore and I'm really hoping to find a place come spring semester. Otherwise Pete said he'd be up for being roomies, which I think I could handle and he heard about someplace that's not to far off. Lol, frankly I just can't be too picky on roomies anyways and I'm just clapping my hands over the fact I found two maybes. I'm wanting to ideally get a place by Spring semester since depending on the lease I might need to stay over the summer. Which could work anyways now that I heard the other wedding I'm in next year got moved to June. I'm waiting for pictures of the bridesmaid dresses to be sent to me since I heard it changed. Its about $100 a piece aka $200 apparently. Joe said though one of the other bridesmaids thought the top would be great for clubbing, so at least part of it is wearable again at some point. Otherwise I'm just wearing the silver shoes I need for Tiff's wedding and Joe is giving us the jewlery. Meanwhile we don't know about hairstyles yet as things are. I'm hoping that maybe the dress could be found somehow for cheaper or something. Otherwise my mother is going to complain about the cost of it. I just know she will. I'm hoping to get more nanny jobs in the coming breaks (Thanksgiving and X-mas) to be able to counterbalance the costs hopefully. I made out like a bandit after all over the summer doing that. So hopefully if I do find myself home for the holidays instead of somewhere else I'll be making plenty of cash. I figure if I find myself watching either the Wilsons and/or Pattons again I should be able to get the amount for the bridesmaid dress in a few sittin's. We'll see though, either way I think my mother will not be happy about how much I'd need to spend on it, even if I could find it for 75% off.

Hell Daniel asked me, "Why do you even come home?" Considering I'm only back for around three months outta the year.

I'm going to head out now for milk and to check out that place now. All because I'm thinking about a nap when I get back if I don't stop being sleepy.

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Subject:Soooo....Vermont
Time:02:15 pm
Current Mood:coldcold

Alrighty, first couple of days here it was really nice. All of a sudden I find myself tossing away the shorts to put on jeans already! Why so cold all of a sudden?!?!

Otherwise I got my single and even though I need to walk through someone else's room all the time I really like it. Finally my own space! Its all set up except for the posters so far, which will be happening soon enough.

I've been a good girl and running everyday (except Saturday) in order to get in semi-shape for Preseason practice. That starts tomorrow at a lovely 9am. We have dinner tonight at 5 in the Dining Hall to see each other again and chitchat about plans for practice and stuff. Woo. The new coach seems pretty nifty so far with his attitude and such. We'll see how things go.

Otherwise just kicking back, Kelsey arrived today so I don't have a lounge all to myself finally! I'm wondering where Holly is though. Hopefully there's some explaination behind her not being here yet. She's normally quite punctual.

Anyways, changing into jeans for me! Brrrrrr

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Subject:Been awhile
Time:11:48 pm
Current Mood:busybusy
Soooo how about that summer eh?

Starting to post here again once I'm back up in Vermont and settled in. Another school year to go and share with everyone.
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Subject:One meeting later...
Time:12:20 am
Current Mood:sleepysleepy
I'm not failing REGC yay! I'm still not doing *great* but after how I did on this new test I should be back at a C, then I just need to do great on the next ones, the project, and the final. I think I can do that even. Oh, and miss no more classes. Twice a week class where you are normally allowed to miss five and in this one I've missed four and one more I'm dropped from the class. My grade is like it is because of the four absences, which I find annoying - exteremly. I was sick the first two days, the third I told him flat out we were not paying an extra $200 to get me back so I could go to class on time, and the fourth is the only one I can get since I was 30mins late. Still, I think that last one might be corrected since I was only late, not absent. Otherwise I just need to turn in one paper that apparently didn't get turned in tomorrow. Now I just need to figure out Photography. I'm finishing all my catch-up prints tomorrow (hopefully, but probably do it Wednesday morning) to then bring out a sob story and see how my grade in that class is. Sheesh, I swear! Last semster I got all As and Bs and right now I'm just hopin' these two classes are C's while the rest I think are B's, maybe A's. So long as my scholarship doesn't go away though I don't care. I know with one C I can keep it. I think I really just need to make sure the rest is all up there with an A or two in order to counter act the other C or whatever it is. I know Photography won't be pretty. I pretty much found myself doin' bad on every quiz and the midterm he gave us. I even studied for Photography over Spring Break and thought I did good. Instead I got a 67 x_X So long as its a C though, 'cause REGC I think I can pull up pretty well to attempt countering it while keeping the rest of my grades high. The semester is sooo close to being done even!

Also I'm taking a summer school course online this summer called Theories of Writing. Its a required class and not offered too often so I'm taking it. Otherwise my fall schedule is all set up for me to register. I'm dissapointed that I'm not taking the Topics in Lit: Popular Fiction (1900s - Present), which I think Scott was slightly too when I said it. All because of that damn Environmental credit I want to get outta the way so my Wednesdays are already crazy. Otherwise it was offered MWF 11:45 - 12:40. This is what my schedule will look like though:

Mondays:
Painting Landscapes 3:25 - 4:45

Tuesdays:
Intro to Lit 1:00 - 2:20
Intro to the Arts 3:45 - 5:05

Wednesdays:
Painting Landscapes 3:25 - 4:45
Environmental Lit 5:30 - 8:20

Thrusdays:
Intro to Lit 1:00 - 2:20
Intro to the Arts 3:45 - 5:05

Fridays:
Adv. Fiction Workshop II 1:30 - 4:30
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Subject:I found this interesting
Time:09:28 pm
Current Mood:workingworking

Ignoring my shitty day I'm posting something from my REGC book about bisexuality I found interesting:

"Bisexualities   In a society built around the dichotomies in which people are likely to be categorized as either herterosexual or homosexual, developing a bisexual identity can be difficult. Sociologist Martin Weinburg and his associates (Weinburg, Williams, & Pryor, 2003) note that people who claim a bisexual identity face significantly more hostility than even homosexuals because their identity involves the rejection of two recognized categories of sexual identity.

   While the heterosexual world was said to be completely intolerant of any degree of homosexuality, the reaction of the homosexual world mattered more. Many bisexuals referred to the persistant pressures they experienced to relabel themselves "gay" or "lesbian" and to engage in sexual activity exclusively with the same sex. It was asserted that no one was really bisexual, and that calling oneself "bisexual" was a politcally incorrect and unauthentic identity. (Weinburg, Williams, & Pryor 2003, p. 230)

Weinburg et al. found that settling into a bisexual identity often occurs many years after on experiences strong sexual attraction towards both men and women. Self-proclaimed bisexuals initially face a period of confusion and doubt as they struggle with an identity that doesn't fit into preexisting categories. This period can span years. Eventually, though, they come to see bisexuality as a plausible option and begin to apply the label to themselves.

What makes bisexuality especially interesting as its lack of social ratification. Homosexuals and heterosexuals alike often consider bisexuality to be a transitional stage. Indeed, the desire to form a permanent, monogamous relationship with someone requires that an individual "choose one or the other." Some Internet dating sites even prevent a person from retrieving information about both men and women. Hence, bisexuality continues to be a fluid identity long after its first application. Although most of Weinburg, Williams, & Pryor's subjects indicated that they didn't think they were in transition from homosexual to heterosexual (or vice versa), they did acknowledge that it was possible that some time in the future they might identity themselves as either homosexual or heterosexual. These expectations may simply relfect the power of a cultural ideology that defines sexual orientation in either/or terms."

Pgs 126 - 127 from the book "Identites & Inequalities - Exploring the Intersections of Race, Class, Gender, and Sexuality" by David M. Newman.

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Subject:That's it
Time:10:16 am
Current Mood:contemplativecontemplative
In order to keep my sanity I'm pulling a Scarlett O'Hara with her phrase that goes along the lines of "I will think on it later, just not today."
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Subject:Make the pain stop
Time:11:43 am
Current Mood:soreOW!
OW ow ow ow, bad *bad* headache or something where my right temple is. Just started and it *hurts*. Dagnabit, I don't wanna go to class with this. I'm also going to delay laundry 'till after my Photography class today since I'm too lazy right now to run out and go do laundry right now and inbetween I'm grabbin' my refill and eating dinner. Whee. Great before I end this, I'd like to say this includes my right arm now too with the pain.
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Subject:I should just get a single
Time:05:27 pm
Current Mood:lazylazy

Liz has informed me she wants to try and get a single next semster, which is fine by me. This is nothing bad or anything so woo! Its just a matter of we all want our own space and have been around each other waaaayyy to much. So I get a roomie #4 if hopefully they're not here that often, or by some weird mystical agreement my folks will let me see about getting a single. Highly doubtful given that's an extra $500, even though I'm reducing the meal plan that's taking off $200 from that. So yeahhhh...we'll see about this at a later date.

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Subject:Whoops looks like I spoke too soon on that Ed thing lol
Time:04:03 pm
Current Mood:thoughtfulthoughtful
Well I got back, and I've decided I hate those propellor planes when it comes to landings. Waaayyy to much turbulence or shaking or whatever it was. I also only slept on that plane. Surprisingly I'm not tired though. Got back unpacked a bit, wound up havin' great sex with Ed, and then found at least an interesting fact. He took a bet that he'd stay single for three months lol. Plus he doesn't want to put any of us (hey there're other women too back home he would date) that he would date in a long distance relationship. Which I can get. Plus the fact he might not be here in the fall. I'll be askin' if that "Don't fall in love rule" is back in place now since we're still friends with benefits. Go figure, I jinxed myself by posting about it lol! Frankly I do hope this doesn't end since I feel rather hard for him right now. That and given he said he's on the same page. Still, hopefully he'll get the summer school thing put together that way he's back in the fall. Otherwise, welp, fall is fall and not here yet and I guess I'm still single after all!
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Subject:Going back home (Vermont) tomorrow
Time:11:10 pm
Current Mood:giddygiddy

Well I'm going back to Vermont tomorrow. I'm actually pretty damn excited about it is the crazy thing. We'll see school wise how long that lasts. Otherwise I sent my 12 page paper to Lynda so cross your fingers that I actually get a good grade! I'm also close to halfway through "Carmello", which is also for my Topics in Lit class. I've barely touched the Formatting book, but I hope to have that taken care of on the plane. Oh, I also found out my next draft is due on this coming Friday. AHHHHH! I'm also studying for my Photography midterm while travelling tomorrow. We'll see if I don't fall asleep a lot while reading hehe. Also I think I am finally going to mention Ed since we seem to be off the "friends with benefits" thing. I've not mentioned Ed because I know I put out a lil Girlfriend's app early on before I met him (Jan/Feb?) that caught a few interests, and we'd agreed this is a friends term thing given he's from Cali (and also got out of a nasty relationship) and so to just not do anything crazy like fall for each other or something like that. Yeeeaaahhhh, that got tossed out the window during this Spring Break. For once I'm looking forward to a guy calling me or me calling him practically everyday, or texting. When I'd be talking with Raj I'd always be ready to just get off the phone in the end when we finally were apart. Lara, since I know you'll be reading this, remember how you feel with your hubby, esp in the beginning? Yeah. That. We'll see if this survives the summer though. He might be my date to Bride #1's wedding in July and he wants me to come out to apparently this big bash of his that's also in July. I might as well mention we're creating a "list" on the kinky side. Those we'd be willing to have a threesome with. Frankly I'd love one. Hell, he's not kept me from being bored and that's something that can be hard. He has 6am practice so I generally only sleep over weekends (well Thrusday-Saturday, sometimes Sunday), but when I'm over its hard not to keep our hands off each other. Lara, he's a Fuck Beast. Summer is coming up though. It'll be the time we'd be seeing if this survives or not. Esp given the fact he might not be coming back if he can't get what he wants for summer school. Whoosh, well I got that out there. Otherwise its been fun in Hawai'i!

It was slow going at first given it was just "Whoa, we're actually HERE!" That and I noticed something. Its an issue to do just activities I actually consider normal now, like just going out with Benton. He likes just being inside too much it feels like. When John-Paul showed up Jackie and myself were all revved then. He'd brought the click we'd needed. Unfortnately we found ourselves more off doing things while Benton stayed inside and read. Like just going to the beach outside things. Oh! I got a tiny bit of a tan for once! I love the spray stuff Jackie got for burns, better than that green jelly stuff any day. I took pics too, which'll be displayed (someday, someday I'll put up pics like I'm always saying @_@). Jackie and I went clubbing one night, Benton came along and just drank a Root Beer in the corner while we danced. She had to get use to the fact we were the minority at first. Apparently she's only been to places with her Sorocity that we're still the dominant there. Creepy guy aside towards the end I think she had fun. I know I did. I've not done any dancing in ages! It was great, I really love doing it. St. Patty's Day was spent at the PCC going around, I never realized until we had a dinner there how they like things so *sweet* here. It was fun overall. We got royally rained on after the dinner, lol! We were soaked, but I was laughing the entire time at least. It wasn't cold at all until the day was done. Oh, I also wound up sitting next to a couple and their grandson for the show at the end who're from Oklahoma! How crazy is that? I chitchatted with the grandmother for awhile until they left during intermission. It was interesting running into someone from Oklahoma again, esp ones that're so nice. Also to go waaaay back, the plane we took from Albany to JFK? It had propellers on the wings. Friggin' made me nervous, but thankfully I fell asleep.

Anyways, its 11:30 so I should probably head upstairs again and pack for going back. We're taking a shuttle at 10am to get to the airport. Lol, I looked at my flight time way wrong. At least that means I'm not calling Ed and my mom too late for them. I keep forgetting the 5 hour time difference when I want to call people, whoops! We leave at 12:30 with the cuzs. We *still* get back at 10:11am the next day! So my little to-do list for tomorrow (and the flights) isssssss ----

1. Get to the airport and take off!
2. Study for my Photography midterm
3. Read the Formatting book and write a page over it
4. Read more "Carmello" (gettin' close to the halfway point so far outta 400-something pages!) Props if I finish it somehow!
5. Sleep!
6. Make the various "I got here on time/OHMYGOD I missed my plane!" phone calls. (There's a possability of being delayed for Albany it seems. That can always screw up a flight schedule. I don't know if JFK is included in this is the thing.)
7. Get back to SVC

Wow, I think I might actually get to check all this stuff off for once. I really hope to get 2 - 4 done while I'm on the plane. That would make the workload a bit easier. Esp if my Thursday class is indeed cancelled like it could be. Also because I just realized I have a draft due on Friday and I've need to work a lot more on it. AHHHHHH! I don't have any of the comments people gave me to try and correct the dialogue so that'll wait 'till I get back. I really need to work on my dialogue. My guy doesn't sound like a guy apparently and its too chat loggish. Diana commented when the critique happened, "It feels like we ripped your work apart and on a good note you shouldn't change the coffee shop's name. It makes me think of nice and warm things involving rasins and oatmeals and stuff." Its called the Raisin Cup : )

Okay, now its ten 'till 12am, time to go up, pack and sleep. Also on that note I need to hope Ed and my mom don't call me at god awful hours again like this morning. First 7:30am then 9:45am. I wake up at 10am here so ugh to even getting woken up 15mins earlier.

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Subject:Five more days 'till I'm doing school work in Hawaii!
Time:08:29 pm
Current Mood:crazycrazy
Five more days until Hawaii! Yay! I can't wait! The only thing that puts a blemish on this is the fact that I need to do school work during break. Here's my Spring Break List:

1. Write my 12 page paper to perfection (I'm writing only two pages a day though starting either Friday or Saturday).
2. Saturday and Sunday are clean the room/packing days.
3. Pick up cuz from Alb on Monday
4. Read, Formatting and write a page over it
5. Read Carmello
6. Read Art and Fear (only happen if the other two are read probably)
7. Read Tales of Burning Love (see above)
8. Study for Photography midterm

So yeah, I got work on Spring Break.Succcckkkk
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Subject:Hmmm
Time:10:39 am
Current Mood:annoyedannoyed
Hmmm, why does my roomie talking about her family problems today annoy me....Though I gotta say I wanna just sometimes yell at her, "You need to stop being in 'denial' of your own problems before you say others need to fix theirs!" Maybe that's it today. Oh well, I'll escape to the dark room here.

Correction. I know why. Its because she is trying to henpeck them to fix their own that our so similair to her's, but she decides she gets to ignore that little fact I guess. Thankfully she leaves Friday and then I'll be roomie free 'till the 20th to refuel "roommate tolerance". Sometimes I like her as a roomie, other times I just want to scream at her. Ah, the little sister I never wanted that is incarnated in my roomie.
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Subject:Hell Week's To Do List
Time:12:15 am
Current Mood:blahblah
Alrighty this week, which is lovingly named "Hell Week" by many college students is for this week's to-do list. Here we go...

1. Make prints for Wednesday class
2. Rewrite up APA draft for Wednesday class
3. Have Lynda check over the 6 pages to make sure on the right course ASAP
4. Proceed to fix/write up the other 6 pages after that by Thursday
5. Write up analysis of Publishers for Performance & Publication by Thursday
6. Critique what I got for Group 2
7. Give back critiques to Benton and Catherine
8. Turn in airport slip for rides to and from the airport tomorrow

So far all is duable except the fact that Lynda doesn't have office hours tomorrow. Damn. I'll just see about getting it to her Tuesday morning then with my email address attached and write as much as possible otherwise. I'm making my prints tomorrow before and after class so hopefully that'll be all taken care of tomorrow. Otherwise I'll just write more of my draft for Lynda/writing center. Tuesday I'll revise my draft for REGC and work on either my paper for Topics or my analysis of P&P. Wednesday is dedicated then to P&P and Topics. Thrusday is then for the critiques. Geesus I may or may not get through this week. Then all that's left is cleaning my room, pick up my cuz, and next day fly out to Hawaii. Oh and pack. Def pack. Anyways, I'm stoppin' short of 6 pages since its gunna be 1:30am soon and I'm tired now. Sleeeeppp. I'll work on finishin' my way to page 6 in the mornin'.
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Subject:Oh dear god
Time:05:35 pm
Current Mood:numbnumb

I just started reading "Disapperence" from Arranged Marriages and I couldn't help but at one point think suddenly "Oh my god. This would've been my future with Raj if I had stayed with him." I wanna cry now for some reason. I have a headache now too and my body is suddenly doing those tiny minute shakes. All because of two pages, which the husband describes the bed relations between him and his wife. It reminded me of Raj and I, except he used his voice for begging instead of his hands when I said "not tonight." The shaking I want to say is from a lack of food so I've now been eating instead of waiting 'till 7, but I'm 50/50 doubtful because of past experience with lack of food. Still, it reminded me then of the fantasty I had when I was dating him. A sick one. Just that someday he would've snapped and bruised and bloodied me up so I'd race out with a scream out of the my lounge and upstairs to the guy's lounge to pound on their door and be let in hysterical because their lounge was a "safe zone" in it. I had it several times. That's not normal. I'm seriously freaked right now.

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Subject:To Do List of Doom
Time:07:31 pm
Current Mood:busybusy
Might as well make a new list of everything I need to get done for this week I figured. Yes, lists are going to be a new constant right now while trying to keep it all together as it gets closer to Hell Week. The week before Spring Break ugh ugh.

1. Write a good chunk for Fiction Workshop this Friday
2. Critique submissions from others in group for Friday
3. Finish the final roll of film tomorrow for Wednesday

4. Read all of "Arranged Marriage" that I need for Thrusday
5. Send out for sample copies of the potential places for submission for P&P
6. Write out a good half minimum of the 1st draft for my 12 page paper by end of the week
7. Write out 1st draft for APA paper for R,E,G,C

This is just for this week. A new list will be placed up when Monday rolls around again. I find this helps me in keeping together things lately in typing out an actual list to look at. So far it looks like I might not actually kill myself this week. Yay. We'll see if that's actually true. I hope to write two pages tonight for my 12 page paper and read all of "Arranged Marriage" that I need read by Thrusday. Otherwise tomorrow I leave for 1, 2, & 3. 5 I'll do on Wednesday along with whatever is left of 4 and write at least my APA paper if not more pages for the 12 page paper.

Yick, I can't wait for Spring Break. Even if I'll be doing work for classes over the break.

Update:
Well today (Wednesday) I plan to do 1,2, & 5. If I need a break I'll just read more of "Arranged Marriages". That way it'll leave me all of Thrusday to work on more pages for my 12 page paper. Ahhhh, I'm keeping my head above the water somehow. Barely.

Update 2:
Well I just finished the critiques and will scan them so I have my own copies. Otherwise I looked at sample copies and found archives on the websites! Well except for Fresh Boiled Peanuts, but that's because they only have two issues out. So I get the feeling they would just tell me to buy the issues if I asked for any. I'm going to try writing some for Fiction Workshop after a quick break (well again) and hopefully I'll get a nice big surge for writing! Tomorrow I plan to work on my 12 page paper and see about making some prints for my Photography class. Otherwise I'll do it early Friday. I watched Toyko Godfathers today, it was hilarious!
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Subject:I'm going to HAWAII
Time:04:46 pm
Current Mood:ecstaticecstatic
YAY! Tickets are bought and I'm going with my cuz Jackie, my friend Benton, and my other cuz John-Paul is flying in later to join us. It's going to be the Waikiki area over by Honolulu. So we're going to be by the beach and the International Market and things like that. All we need now is hotel/whatever, which we'll get booked by the end of this weekend. I'm all excited to go there, I can't wait. We fly out the 13th and fly back the 19th, but won't actually be back touching down in Alb until the 20th @_@! I'm going to see about security taking us if they can. Otherwise I'd need to pay for parking at the airport and plus I don't want to drive after so much jet lag. Still, I'm all excited about it! Eeee! Hawai'i!

Now I just need to make sure my grades don't kill me.
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Subject:Stuff to do
Time:04:46 pm
Current Mood:workingworking

Things to do:

1. Read the rest of Garcia Girls
2. Read as much as possible of My Mother is Made of Water for 3 - 5 page paper
3. Read over current sources for 12 page paper for Topics
4. Try to start intro for said 12 page paper
5. Write a lot more for Fiction Workshop
6. Go develop film for Wednesday
7. Book a hotel/whatever for Hawai'i
8. See about writing APA paper over "My Mother is Made of Water"

Ewwww...long list. But thankfully I can get hopefully a few done this weekend. Anyways, to reading I go!

Well hopefully I get more done today (Monday) so this list will get shorter. I *really* hope so.

Otherwise my nose has refused to stop entirely with the bleeding. Ew.

My stomach feels bad.

Off I go for a test.

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